Lies, lies and lies.

OMG OMG OMG OMG! How could I forget about Jay!? How could I not realize
that he would have more videos out by now?! I was browsing youtube and
on a whim decided to search for Jay videos. And there was one which I
dont remember seeing before with the description saying "Jay’s new
video" so I went, "hmmm" and clicked it. Turns out it’s the video for
my absolute favorite song on the new album. It’s the duet with Lara.
Too bad the quality of the one on youtube is so bad that I had to
immediately log in to my reliable Jay forum and download from there.
But once  I got there, I discovered that there are already 2 other
new videos out. I can’t believe this. How the hell could I forget!??!?
Arrrgh. This whloe fishie thing is clouding my head.
Need.to.break.the.spell.
Dangit!

[EDIT]
Just saw Coral Sea and Romantic Cellphone videos.
The Coral Sea one is interesting coz it features Fang Wenshan as the
leading man and not Jay. It was different but heck, I wish there was
more Jay in it. LOL. And I get to see Lara, although I still have no
idea who she is, but she’s kinda cute.
As for Romantic Cellphone….the video is oh-so-cute!!!!! I bet it’s
some sort of commercial for Panasonic or some sort of SMS service. Jay
is cute cute cute in it!!! He smiles a lot and so you know what that
means…..DIMPLES. lol. He’s so cute. There’s just nothing else to say.
LOL.
Oh and one thing that struck me from the video is how thin the
actresses are!!!! The one who played Wenshan’s cheating gf is
stick-figure skinny!!!! And here I am weighing less than 102 lbs (the
least I weigh in the last 6 years) and already I am panicking coz I
dont think this is healthy for me. Horrifying how in Asia I’d be
considered average and not on the thin side O_o.

Gosh. It’s saturday night already. Where the hell did my thanksgiving break go?! I didnt do anything!!! Well, I shopped…..and…..shopped……and…..shopped :P  Yup. Went to sephora twice in one weekend and got 2 new eyeshadows each from stila and urban decay, a blush and brush cleaner from bare minerals, a brush from becca, and the photo finish primer from smashbox. Then bought 5 tops from Express, a bunch of shirts and a fleece zip up from AE….a scarf and cap from Old Navy; then went to Ross and got a DKNY jeans, 2 black leather belts and pair of shoes. Oh and I decided to try out the Sonia Kashuk’s brushes for Target. Got 3 brushes but havent used any of them. Should be using them tonight since I’ll be going out. And going out means dressing up. And dressing up means putting on make up
And as if I am not broke enough, I still want a few more things, i.e.: the new CK fragrance, Euphoria and True Star from Tommy Hilfiger. And then I want a pair of knee high boots, a purse/hand bags and more shoes!!!! Yep. I’m a shopaholic. But then again, I’m sure every girl thinks she is one too.LOL. Oh, and am gonna go to the mall again tomorrow with a friend. Lesse, Ive been to the mall like everyday since Wednesday. LOL.
So. how’s the paper going, you ask? It’s going, it’s going. In any case, life goes on regardless of the paper being finished on time or not. And I’ll still see the object of my infatuation (LOL) in a couple days. I’m keeping my fingers crossed that i would anyway ;P He texted me when I was at work today and was soooooo ecstatic when I saw it. But then i re-read it and realized the msg was too……..impersonal; he might have sent a mass msg to all the ppl in his phone book. So yeah. Got a bit disappointed there, but oh well. Whadya expect?! The guy prolly has 200 numbers in his phone o_O. Oh okay, it might be an exaggeration. It’s more like 100. Same difference. Blah.
Wow. Just realized this update is so random and incoherent that you all are prolly like, "HUH?!?!?!?" LOL. So I’m just gonna stop now. In conclusion, I miss him; spent tons of money; still havent finished the paper but can’t care less coz I’m excited to be seeing him in a couple days. LOL.
What a break ;D

OMG. just spent almost an hour dialing a friend who needed a morning call at 5 am. Must’ve called him more than 50 times. And the worst part? He had an alarm clock all set up and was finally woken up by that alarm instead of my call. And when he finally picked up my call after I spent 30 minutes dialing, he said 5 more minutes. And so I called him 5 minutes later and it was not until 20 minutes later did he pick up, sounding alert and awake. Turned out he had taken a shower and did not hear the phone ring. Oh and did I mention he has his ringer on vibrate and beep? How the hell do you expect to wake up with just vibrate and beep?! Do you seriously want to wake up?! And can’t you have the decency to call me back once youre awake to tell me that I dont need to call anymore?
I am really upset right now although I may not sound like I was on the phone just now, but dude, I am. This is not the first time it’s happened. Last time, I had to deliberately wake myself up at 5 to call you and I had to dial almost 20 times. I thought it was messed up then, that you had your ringtone so low when you asked someone to wake you up. But now? Today?! I’m so upset and weirded out that I am speechless. Fortunately I had been up for a while and was watching a DVD at 5 this morning coz had I had to deliberately wake myself up for this, I would have been very, very mad at you.
All I know, dude, I am NEVER going to be your morning call again. I’d call you for 15 minutes maybe, but no more than that. It’s not my responsibility to make sure you’re not late; especially when you, yourself, doesnt seem very keen on getting to class on time. Nor are you taking this whole morning call seriously. Seems to me, you dont want/need to be waken up.
Next time, when you ask someone to call and wake you up, put your ringtone set to LOUDEST! I dont care what your excuse is, putting it on vibrate/low is just not acceptable.

So. I decided not to go to Chicago less than 24 hours before departure and i think my roommate is upset with me because of that. maybe not mad or anything, but i’m pretty sure he is upset, even if only a little bit. I, myself, am not sure with the decision. Right now, less than 12 hours to departure, i’m beginning to think twice about that decision. Mostly because it’s gonna be so dead around here and i’d be bored out of my mind. But hey, i needed to decide and I did. So there, i’ll face whatever consquences.
Some of you might wonder why I decided not to go and the answer is……i’m not really sure myself. It’s a myriad of reasons, actually and the part i’m not sure about is, which one(s) triggered the decision? Yes, the most important one and the one that should be the main reason is that i have a paper due on Monday and there is just no way in hell (or heaven, or this lifetime for that matter) that i’d be able to finish it on time. But you all know me and since when did I ever let academic interfere with my having fun?! And see, that’s the point. This time, the fun isnt worth the D I might be getting if I go. I dont know if it’s gonna be fun or not. Yes, it will be fun, of course, to an extent. But how MUCH fun? Will I be able to have fun with that paper looming over me the whole time? Is it worth it?
And then there’s the whole debacle with the ex. No, it’s not a big deal anymore. We’ve moved on and no, I dont feel anything anymore. And that is exactly why I dont feel like going. I used to always look forward to seeing him and spending time with him everytime I go, but now I dont. There really isn’t anything I look forward to (No offense,Chicago ppl). Instead there are many things I dread on this trip; i.e.: 20 hours on the road with 5 other ppl and not having my iPod with me so I wouldnt have a sanctuary when I just need a time out from everyone; not being able to have a time out; the FREEZING COLD WEATHER!; not being able to do what i want; having to follow the groups wish……gosh, i might sound like a total snob/bitch now, eh? It’s not that I completely wouldnt be able to stand all those things and I know it’ll be fun too. It’s just that right now, I am failing ALL four classes I’m taking this semester and so…..I dont know if I’m up for anything.
And I know some of you, or at least one of you, is thinking that I’m not going because I want to stay here and spend time with the object of my infatuation. (LOL. that sounds sooooo retarded :P) But no, I did not cancel because of that person. He will be going home to spend time with family anyway and I won’t get to see him until Monday. And even then he still has a friend visiting from Japan and he won’t have time to hang out with me. And yes, it’s just making our incompatibility even clearer. Why must I always for charming and socially gifted guys like these?
But I digress.
So yeah, I’m not going to Chicago. I thought I’d do some major cleaning of the apt and my room >_< instead. Oh and shop at the outlets :P. I need a new pair of black pants and knee high boots. And I want some other things too
Have fun you guys and be safe. See you soon

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