sometimes love just aint enough…
so now im one half of those couples whose friends say, when things ended, that they knew he and i werent gonna work out anyways.
you know, i hate hearing that; even when its other people’s friends talking about their friends. i almost always wanted to say if you knew it why didnt you say something from the beginning?! okay, most people wouldnt hear a word of caution when theyre madly infatuated anyways. so i can kinda understand the silence.
besides, who am i to bitch when one of my best friends is getting married to a guy i dont really like and i havent expressed any objections in anyway or form. to be more precise, i dont think they mesh well together. now i cant really tell her that right. i mean, what does it mean to "mesh well" anyways?
but i digress. the point of this entry was to lament the fact and chant the mantra that, as always, this is for the best and that if we’re meant to be then one way or the other we’re gonna be. just not right now.
i did love him, still do. and he most definitely still is the sweetest thing that’s ever happened to me. and thus he deserves to be with someone whom he’s passionate about, who makes him WANT to open up and share his fears and dreams, who gets him and takes him the way he is. because he is an amazing person. i just cant appreciate him enough.
it’s for the best. if we’re meant to be, we’re meant to be. he deserves to be happy. i want him to be happy. this is for the best.
